As you all know the relationship with my daddy is less than friendly at the moment. Because of what happened, you can read about it here. We had only spoken over the past couple of months via email. Most weren’t really personal until it was pertaining to the holidays. I ask him to come down for Thanksgiving and he declined….Then the Christmas email was sent….He said he would have to see, because he wanted to ask “her” if she was ready…I was taken back by this…But finally gave in and invited the both of them. He eventually wrote and said that she wasn’t ready…HA! But he was coming…But for only 24 hours…I was hurt…
I wrote him and begged to come down longer. So he is now coming down from Christmas Eve until Saturday…Good…
He had give me part of the money for the DS that was purchased. So I felt like I needed to discuss returning it with him. I didn’t think email was quick enough…So I called.
The phone rang and rang, thinking I was about to have to leave a message, I was preparing what I was going to say, and then he answered….I got scared.
“Hello”….”Hey Daddy”…..he quickly responded (with a smile on his face, you can tell when somebody is smiling) “Hey Baby”….I thought he was excited to talk to me…I then proceeded to tell him the gift situation and explain what I was returning it for. He said “Whatever she wants”. So, ok….Then he said that his phone was beeping…(phone going out) Because he had answered up at his shed. So, I said ok…And he started to say something and the phone cut off. This was 14 minutes later.
Now normally he would call me back to finish what he was saying…But no return phone call. I just sorta sat….waiting. So I thought well since I was the one to make the move he would call that night. Back to our normal 9pm phone calls. The phone never rang. This was Wednesday and he hasn’t called since.
I am not too sure what to think. He will be here this time on Christmas Eve, and I know that besides the phone call being awkward the visit will be as well.
I am preparing myself for heart aches and turmoil. I don’t want this to be a bad Christmas. I want to add this one to my memories of a good one. I know that I will be sad that mother isn’t here to share this one with us, but I also want to know that she is watching over us…And celebrating Christmas in the best place, Heaven!
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Oh, I so understand what you're going through. I, too, have a strained relationship with my parents and I really wish I didn't, but there it is. I will be praying for you and your father and also will pray that your Christmas is a wonderful and happy one with no problems or strain.
Merry Christmas and know that there is someone who totally understands your situation!
God bless you ~ Julie
Oh Joanna,
I do have a feeling it will be awkward this Christmas. All you can do is be yourself and hope that all will be alright. I do wish the best for you in the situation.♥
I'm sorry to read this part of your story; but will praying that this Christmas will be what you need and want it to be!
Yes I hope Christmas isn't too awkward, but I agree with Darlene. It is awkward & I still am unsure about what is going on. I have been trying to be the chill one about this whole thing but I'm starting to get mad and upset now...& you know that is never good
I hope your Christmas goes well. Atleast "She" is not coming with your Dad. My parents got divorced a few months back so this will be my first Christmas not spending it with both of my parents. My Mom was the one who left my Dad (and no reason given as to why she left) So my brothers and I have had a very hard time having a relationship with her. Christmas Day this year will be hosted at my house with my Dad. Then next Saturday we have to go to my Moms. It is going to be SO AWKWARD. So dont feel alone. I am having some family awkwardness of my own. I will be praying everything works out for you :)
Wow just read about your dilemma. I totally agree with you about everything. I cannot believe that your dad cannot understand the pain that you are feeling and not be overcome by guilt. I am so sorry I cannot even imagine the turmoil you are going through.
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