Saturday, February 20, 2010

I Love Him more than words can Describe

At one point in my young {that just makes me sound old} life, I thought that I was in love.  I had this feeling for a guy that made my stomach have butterflies and I thought that was what love was and how it felt.

Then, life happened, hurt happened and it was over.  But I got over it.  Quickly.  I still thought that it had been love.

Then I met Zack.  When I met Zack there was just something different about the feeling I had towards him.  Our first night out together was with a group of friends.  I got drunk. {not the best thing to do on your first “date”}  I got sick.  I threw up.  He held my hair back.  He wiped my face.  He called me the next day.  I knew after a few short days of meeting him that he was the one. 

At that time I had a two year old daughter and he treated her like she was his own.  That was grand, in my book. 

I told him after two weeks, “I love you”.  It just felt right.  He responded with the same. 

We got engaged 4 months later {Christmas that year} and married almost 2 years after that.

He gives me butterflies, but this time it’s different.  I look forward to living every day by his side.  I can’t wait to see what new experiences we get to share together.  I look at all that we have and know that we wouldn’t have any of it, if we weren’t together.

Our marriage is by no means perfect.  Nobody’s marriage is perfect.  We have our faults.  But that is what makes us stronger.  That is what brings us closer together.

I still tell Zack, no less than 100 times a day, that I love him.  It’s something that never grows tired.  When I am snuggled up by his side I feel protected and that the world stands still.  My heart skips a beat every time we are together, almost 8 years later.

I love him more and more everyday.  The feeling that I have for him tells me that he is my first love.  The feeling that I had before, when I thought I was in love was nothing.  It was infatuation, if anything.  A sense of not wanting to be alone.

Love is ever growing, ever changing and ever strong.  I may not show it all the time but, I love Zack more than words can describe.

And, I thank God for putting him in my life.

3 comments:

Beth in NC said...

That is sweet, well -- expect the throwing up drunk part (ha). :o) Thanks for sharing. What a blessing to have found love. :o)

Lindsay-ann said...

Hi Joanna
He sounds one very special man. I am so happy for you both.
I have really enjoyed your recent Disney posts. They make me long to go back there very much. You got some great pictures with the characters.
Hope you are having a good weekend.
Lindsay

Heatherlyn said...

I'm so happy for you! I love it when people find that magical TRUE love.

In my experience, when you THINK you have love and then find out you didn't that you are prepared to properly recognize real love when you DO find it. And it feel so fantastic!